my mind is pacified, i feel like i have nothing to say really. paul and i enjoyed the day yesterday, even though i wasn't well in the morning, we still managed to go for a long walk and make food together and spend time in each other's company.

i've got work in the back of my kind slowly eating away at my brain cells. i'm a bit frustrated and worried that it's taking this long for the stupid freytag drawings to be complete. and i feel like no matter how hard i try, they are never good enough for chris. but all i can do is try my best and keep trying. i really don't want to let it get to my head because once i do, that self-doubt and insecurity creeps up. and it's not a good place to be. i don't like to be on the defense. i guess no one ever does.